Bipolar disorder is a big terrifying monster. Always lurking. I can feel it every time behind me. The pressure, the fear, the anxiety, the sadness… and it’s impossible to runaway from.

I try but I can’t keep friends… even ones with similar troubles. It’s just to complicate to explain or to hide. It’s shameful. I tried to explain myself by saying “sorry, I’m just bipolar” but it’s awful, it’s stupid. I don’t want to get away by victimizing myself.

I want to be better. I want to wake to the same person every day. I want to feel the same way about every thing every time.

I’ve been diagnosed a year ago and I’m the same maybe even worse. And I’m medicated. And no friends in sight.

Life got serious and I got caught in the madness. Every thing’s wrong… I can’t work, I can’t leave the house… the only good thing is my writing because this is the right mood to put in words.

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Mad as hell!!! Help!

I just received this on my Airbnb feedback and I just lost it!!! I love my pets so much I give them everything they need I spend more money with them than with me and I got this!!!! I’m so mad I don’t know what to do….

I’m so sick of people being mean just because they can…

An ask for help

Help or share!

https://www.gofundme.com/handicapedanimals

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I’m here to ask for your help to accomplish this dream I have.

I love animals. And I always knew I wanted to work with them or for them, a lot of ideas crossed my mind but this one is the right one .

I want to create a business that helps handicaped animals. Sometimes it’s difficult to know how to deal with them or to have a place for the rescued ones so I want to help them. In addition of being an institution that helps these particular cases I want to create a petwalking petsitting service and a hotel (or a bnb) too to help the main one, handicaped pets, because I also want to help people who fosters or is raising a handicaped pet . I would also want to provide a veteriarian for these pets…

Another idea is to have a Freebox but where people take two and leave one item but pets related.

But first I have to find the building!

So, anything will be helpfull 🙂 I just know that this is my future 🙂

https://www.gofundme.com/handicapedanimals

Help or share!

 

why do I keep hurting myself?

because I want to. That’s the right answer.

I know I’m going o get hurt. and everytime I try to convinve myself that it’s just a game and I know it. But no. I want more. And I get clingy. I keep annoying them. I want to hear sweet things even if it’s not real! maybe. I want to make an impression. that’s for sure.

please answer my messages. I’m feel so stupid. I am.